Welcome to RATSNEST

this is where I keep my projects

my projects and my garbage

you can get some of my things here

left bank books

I write books

these are them


I'm releasing two books right now

One is a book of poems with a couple prose pieces

And the other is a novella I started writing when I was 23

I just picked it back up last year and finished it now that I'm older

Kind of a weird experience to revist that after so much time passed

anyway...


the first one is called

Two People Going To The Bottom Of A River

Mostly it's about being sick and angry

Hating the way that this culture kills the people I love

And creates these meaningless pressures that drive us apart


The other one is called

CHECK ENGINE LIGHT

that's the one about being 23

actually that's not true

it's about being a bit younger than that

and I wrote the first part when I was 23

but I couldn't think of an ending

because it was all too close to me at the time

and the situation that it's based on hadn't resolved well enough to think of an ending

then I found it recently and finished it

It's called check engine light because it's about that feeling of everything fucking up all the time

and you (I) barely understand what's going on

and whenever you start to think you might start to be okay or catching up

right then is when something else fucks up and then you get buried again

also it's a horror story about flesh eating beetles, but mostly it's about being 22.



I also make music

not as much anymore but I'm hoping to get back into it

I have some poems, etc. published online in some places

This seems like a pretty good place to keep a list of them
Oh my god

finding stuff to put on here I just remembered

I have a fucking imdb page

because two music things I made got used in shortfilms

so here's that

wow...

HOLY SHIT

what the fuck...

another thing I found while I was looking for stuff to put here

like, at the same time as I'm making this website

someone is recording themselves reading poems from my book IAV and posting them to Internet Archive

this is fucking surreal


also...

a lot of this stuff is under my legal name

I don't care enough to change that right now

so pretend you didn't see it